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Semi-open: May 05

Who: Lancelot and friends!
What: It's a birthday party! With both regular people and supernatural types. What could go wrong?
When: May 05
Where: Lancelot's flat & garden, Richmond!
Warnings: Gratuitous doggy! Probably a punch up later. Possibly some drunk kissing.

Lancelot's garden is not exactly an acre-large tented paradise.

He's not made of money.

It's big enough to just about fit the people invited across the patio and grass, with Lily variously herding them and rolling around, and he's flitting between them and the kitchen and living room and generally doing his best to butterfly around all of them making sure they're happy. The garden is relatively tidy, as tidy and well kept as a garden that suffers an enthusiastic dog can be. The hedges are neatly trimmed, the tree in one corner healthy and big enough to throw a little shade, and the one flowerbed border seems to mostly have some roses that are yet to fully bloom.

For those who he's only known since the incident last year he's given them a warning: not everyone who will be there is aware of the supernatural side of things, so try not to blurt it to people you don't know.

Despite it being his own birthday Lancelot is, of course, playing host. There's a table set up outside with finger food, salads, drinks and all sorts -- and food strategically inside for those who can't be out in the sun too. He appears to still be checking on more in the oven every so often too, but Lancelot does like to cook -- and he seems quite focused on making sure everyone has something they could eat.

Some of the drinks are alcoholic. The punch isn't that strong, but he has a few other drinks along the side for people who want them and some bottles of beer in an ice bucket. If someone decides to do a little mixing of course then it might wind up stronger.

His sound system is playing the soothing strains of Dire Straits through the place and all in all, for now at least things are going smoothly. So long as nobody says the wrong thing to the wrong person, it will probably be a nice evening. With the mixture of factions present alongside those who have no idea what a faction is, of course... that may be difficult.

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Lancelot takes a sip of his drink as he waits, expecting Faolan to go on....

But he doesn't, and while it's somewhat endearingly sweet (you made me a birthday cake), he can't help but feel a slight flash of confusion that this is... apparently it?

He knows Faolan appreciates what he does for him, that he seems unused to the easy style of friendship Lancelot offers, but is that really all it takes?

Hesitating a moment he tries to think of a way to prompt him on that won't come over... offensive? Dismissive?

"And that's... when you realised?" he tries, quietly willing there to be something more to it than the cake was so good I felt loved.

Faolan chews on his lip, playing with his glass and shaking his head slightly. Yes and no, honestly. He knows that he owes the other man more of an explanation than cake. He just isn't sure how to explain himself. Not in a way that should make sense to the other man at all. Not without feeling like a fool. But he should try anyway. After as much of a fool as he'd made of himself already, what should it matter anymore?

"It wasn't the cake. I mean, it was, sort of, but. Not in the way that you're thinking," he says, seeing the look on the other man's face. He reaches up to run a hand through his hair and turns so that he doesn't have to look at Lancelot as he struggles to put this into words.

"I... I had just come back from being under cover. I had missed you. I'd missed a lot of things really, but." He swallows. "You made me a cake. You cared. About me, and about something that I hadn't even given a thought to in years. And I hadn't even told you the day. But there it was. And there you were. And I was just so glad to see you, I..." He lets his gaze fall to the floor, still not looking at Lancelot, his voice falling low and quiet as well. "It. Was after that, that I realized..." He trails off, shrugging slightly.

He feels peculiarly stuck on the cake (You made me a cake, Faolan says, and You cared about me, and he isn't entirely sure he fully understands why a cake is so significant.) and yet clearly, strange as it seems, this was important to Faolan. Perhaps because he felt so tired and wrung out at the time, it all felt such a contrast. Perhaps Faolan truly has been lonely enough that any sign of care feels threefold strong. It strikes a painful note of pity in Lancelot, the thought that perhaps anyone who showed kindness to Faolan could have ended up this way. That perhaps Faolan was so starved of kindness his gratefulness for it had swollen out of control.

"Faolan," he murmurs gently, "you deserve far better than this. And you will find that person -- I know you will. Someone as strong and kind as you are, but... forgive me for saying so, you should not settle for cake."

Lancelot's words confuse and surprise Faolan, enough to have him glancing up and over to the other man in turn. It takes him a moment to process the analogy, the fact that Lancelot has made it at all surprising him so much.

"Settle for...?" he asks, raising his eyebrows slightly at that. "Lancelot, I don't." He shakes his head for a moment. "I don't know what you're trying to say about me, or. What you're trying to say about yourself for that matter. But I'm not settling on anything. And what I deserve? You've always been far kinder, far more supportive, far more forgiving than anything I've ever deserved. That's what I've been trying to tell you."

"Then you do not give yourself enough credit, Faolan. You deserve plenty."

Lancelot is not even sure why he thinks he would not. Faolan has worked hard, and perhaps he has made mistakes but does not everyone? Is anyone truly free from making mistakes?

"Whatever you may think of me I am not any more deserving of anything than you are."

Faolan stares at the other man incredulously. He had understood that Lancelot was a humble man, of course he had, but he supposes until this moment he had not realized perhaps that Lancelot's opinion of himself was as low as it is. Of course he knew that the other man had questioned why anyone would be interested in him before. And he knew, hazily, from yesterday's conversation that because of his background, he had had to grow up with less than others might have done. But the way he acted most of the time, Faolan wouldn't have thought that it bothered him. He's either very good at hiding the fact that it does, or. He's convinced himself that he's somehow lesser, that this is what he deserves. And Faolan can't figure out which thought hurts more.

"I may have had a lot to drink, but I do remember some things from yesterday. Enough to remember what you said, about me. How I make things 'more interesting than necessary', I believe your words were," Faolan retorts. "There are plenty of other people out there who are far less of a challenge than I am, and I know it. And yet here I am, despite all that. You said that I was a good friend. That my...difficulties didn't cancel that out." He frowns up at the other man. "So why should this be any different?"

He blinks at Faolan like he doesn't fully understand the question himself, frowns in confusion.

"Faolan, you're head of Hillingdon faction. You were voted to stand for a position on the Night Council. Even if you don't win that says that... whatever you think of yourself, plenty of people believe in you and trust you. Who am I?"

Faolan's eyes narrow, his eyebrows furrowing in confusion himself as he listens to Lancelot speak.

"You're a member of the police," Faolan responds. "You're a Guardian. Lancelot..." He trails off slightly, shaking his head. "You are a good man, and that's rare these days. Everyone likes you. Look at how many people were at your party yesterday. Everyone would like to work with you -- Sylvia would take you over me in a heartbeat, and don't you dare deny that. And--" He flushes slightly. "Almost anyone with eyes is attracted to you, in some way or another. You can't tell me that you haven't noticed that."

He shuts his eyes for a moment, shaking his head. Suddenly everything is pounding. "You can't just. Put us up against each other like that. Six months ago? A year? I was nobody. I was barely even getting by, I mean. I've lived on the street, I've done... Some pretty terrible things, just to survive. To make ends meet. You can't just... Tell me not to like you because you don't think that you deserve it. That isn't how this works."

Lancelot looks ready to argue with that --

(He's a Community officer, he's a Guardian probably purely because of that, people came because there was food and drink, and Sylvia --)

Yet Faolan adds to that in a way that makes him fluster, makes him drop his eyes shyly and struggle to find works.

(Attractive? Well, people have flirted with him it's true but he -- Well, it never goes anywhere. It never means anything. He imagines they flirt with everyone.)

"And you cannot tell me to be angry with you," he counters, looking at Lily instead of him. "That isn't how this works either. I don't want to be angry with you, Faolan. I don't want you to go."

"And I don't want to give you up," Faolan counters, though the sound of his voice suggests he does not know whether he has much other choice in the matter or not. This... Whatever it is, it's inconvenient. It makes things so much more complicated. And it adds so much more of a risk to their relationship than a normal friendship would do. Faolan frees his hand to run them over his face, as much in an attempt to hide his flush, hide the embarrassment he feels at being so honest as to try and collect himself and will this pounding headache away.

"No matter what you make of yourself, you are important to me. And that's why I hadn't told you," he admits, lowering his hands to his lap and his eyes to rest on them as well. "Because I know that it's... It's not ideal. And it's probably not what you'd want from me, and. I didn't mean for this, for any of it, I just." He raises his eyes to Lancelot once more. "I know how I feel, Lancelot. I know how I have felt. And I'm sorry if it makes you uncomfortable. I'm sorry that it might have ruined your evening, or your morning. I'm sorry if I have just ruined our friendship. Sorry for that perhaps most of all. But I am not sorry that it is you." He lowers his eyes again, fearing that perhaps yet again he has said too much.

"You have not ruined anything," Lancelot assures him quietly, and he sets down his knife and fork -- reaches out to gently squeeze Faolan's arm. "You do not not have to give anything up. It... is not ideal, I will not deny that. We work together, Faolan, and our job is dangerous. You know that makes this... less than ideal. But... it is not something that can be undone. So we will handle it. So long as you can stop apologising for five minutes."

He flickers a small, tentative smile at that -- lofts an eyebrow questioningly.

Faolan glances down at the hand on his arm, still more than a little uncertain whether he has truly ruined things, whether Lancelot is just reassuring him to be kind and polite, as he always is or whether he truly does believe what he's saying. He supposes he simply has to trust that he is telling the truth. He does trust Lancelot, after all, even if he believes him to be sometimes nicer than he should be.

"I can try," he says, flickering something of a tentative smile back to the other man in return. Wanting to lean into his touch, to place his hand over Lancelot's, normal things that he wouldn't have given a second thought to if not for his recent reveal. He glances down at his hands in his lap, before back up at the other man himself. "You're allowed to hit me if I forget," he offers. "How's that?"

"Sure about that?" Lancelot quips lightly, "I can hit pretty hard."

He pushes to his feet regardless, letting go of Faolan so he can move their plates away to the kitchen.

"Wouldn't want you to have a nasty bruise after all, people might talk."

Lily gets up and pads after Lancelot, circling his feet as he washes up the plates -- tail swishing as he drops a hand to pet at her.

"Hows the head? Painkillers doing anything yet?"

"I'll survive," Faolan retorts. "I've survived worse. And I don't think that you have it in you to do me that much damage."

At the question Faolan shrugs slightly, watching the other man wash up. Wishing that he had it in him to get up and help him but it's all he can do to just stay sitting where he is and not get himself into further trouble as it is.

"Maybe. It's hard to tell," he admits, honestly. "I suppose I'd probably feel worse if they weren't doing anything at all, though." It's just not doing everything that he wants. As in, getting rid of the headache completely. He sits back in his chair slightly, reaching for his banana drink once more.

"Caffeine might help. Finish your other drink, I can make you some slightly weaker coffee. It should be fine now you have some food in you, not too harsh on your stomach."

He stops the water, dries off his hands as he crosses to the coffee machine -- Lily still stalking him close by his feet.

"Do you want to go home and change for the results?"

Just in case he wins he might want to look smart, after all.

Faolan isn't going to protest the coffee. Hell, he's not even going to protest the idea that he should need a change of clothes. Although he wonders for a moment whether that should mean... He hasn't let him leave on his own thus far, after all.

"I probably should," he says, glancing up at Lancelot uncertainly. Not that he's anticipating having to do much more than make an appearance. "Try to make myself look halfway decent at least. You'd...be coming with me?" he asks. Because in truth, he doesn't know what Lancelot's intentions are, in mentioning the change of clothes.

"Unless you'd rather I didn't, I suppose. I was planning to attend the results myself, but if you'd prefer we didn't turn up together..."

He shrugs, banging out the coffee grounds as gently as he can before grinding some more with a quick whirr.

"Or, I could meet you there if you'd rather...?"

Faolan considers it a moment before shaking his head slightly. "No, I. That's alright. You. I don't mind it," he says, honestly surprised that he doesn't, all things considered. Although he does start to wonder, start to worry perhaps more accurately, what Lancelot is going to think of his flat. Of the neighborhood he lives in. Whether he will judge him for it, what conclusions he will draw from it. But no, he doesn't mind.

He glances down at his hands for a moment. "I'd. Rather you'd be there with me, to be honest. And. That's easier if you come with me." He glances up again at Lancelot, hesitantly. "You've got to make sure I don't walk in front of any trains or buses anyway, yeah? Especially after I hear whatever it is they're going to tell me..."

Lancelot can't quite tell if Faolan's joke. Something about his awkwardness, the tone, leaves him wonder if Faolan really is thinking of walking into traffic. His burrow furrows just a little in concern as he slides a mug under the coffee machine and presses the button to start it up.

"You'll be fine," he assures him, "Lily can stay here and guard the place for us, make sure she doesn't get fluffy white fur all over you as soon as you change. Although she does look very smart in a bow, of course. Smarter than both of us."

Lily wags her tail questioningly, because that is her name! Although she does not know why they are saying it!

Faolan glances over at Lily, where she seems to have perked up slightly from whatever mood he had put her in this morning, and inclines his head in turn. "I'll be better for having you there with me, whatever the result," he admits, quietly. A truth he probably would not have let himself admit to before, but now? Well, now Lancelot knows. Why not be honest, at least as much as he can allow himself to be.

"Better leave Lily home though," he agrees. "I don't think she'd like my flat very much anyway." Maybe his guitar. She might even sniff it out from where he'd stashed it under his bed since bringing it to Lancelot's flat while he'd been away. But there's hardly anything interesting there, and certainly not interesting for dogs.

"Then we'll go together," Lancelot confirms easily, and he pulls the coffee mug free -- slides it onto the table before turning to grab out some milk and sugar to set beside it. "There, this might help if part of it is caffeine withdrawal too. Mostly you need to stay hydrated, though. We could pick up one of those sports drinks on the way there? They're meant to be good for this sort of thing, apparently."

He slides back into his chair, watching Faolan in thought and holding Lily steady as she fusses her face into his lap again.

"And I suppose I should change too at some point, just to make sure I'm not too coated in white fur."

Faolan nods absently in response to the suggestion. Anything to help, honestly, although he suspects that even if this coffee won't be good for him it should help him feel a little more human at least. He reaches for it, adding only a little bit of milk before cradling it in front of himself.

"You won't be half as much in the public eye today," Faolan points out. "Be glad of that. I can't say that much good comes from it, in the end." Faolan's certainly had to live through enough public scrutiny in the past while to put him off the idea of inviting more upon himself, at any rate. "If nothing else," he adds, "it means at least they'll be a little forgiving of some dog fur on your clothes, should there be some. It's understandable, given..." He gestures vaguely to Lily and where she sits resting her head in Lancelot's lap.

He smiles down at Lily as Faolan gestures to her, fondly ruffling her ears and scritching behind them.

"I'll technically be on duty while there. In fact, if you win I will technically be guarding you -- and I suppose you won't be able to be a guardian any more. Unless they decide to make you guard yourself along with everyone else."

Lancelot flicks his eyes up and twitches an amused smile, shrugs after a moment.

"The contract didn't seem to take that into account when I looked through it, but I don't think they wrote it with someone like you in mind."

Faolan raises his eyebrows slightly, making something of a face as he raises his coffee and takes a grateful sip of it, although it's still slightly too hot to do more than that. "Someone like me," he echoes. "I don't think that anyone ever planned much of anything with someone like me in mind." He glances up at the other man, realizing that was really rather self-deprecating in truth, and glances back down at his coffee in turn.

"It would be strange," he says, after a moment's pause. "To have you guarding me. I mean, I'm Hillingdon Clan Leader, but. It's not the same. They've still always treated me like Sylvia's pet Guardian, the Hillingdon Clan Leader. It would be different, as a council member. They'd have to treat me as an equal." And he's not really sure what to think about that. "I don't really want things to change," he admits, quietly.

Lancelot's smile fades as he studies Faolan more closely, considering the admission.

"Nothing at all?" he prompts, and tilts his head a little. It doesn't seem true, considering everything else he's said.

Then Lancelot is pushing to his feet, freeing himself from Lily and dusting himself off.

"I'll go change, we can stop at a corner shop for powerade or something."

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