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i. a nightclub
Nights with live music are better for dancing. People come up with any number of reasons why -- the feel of the bass beating in your heart, the energy from the band mixing with the energy of the crowd. It's all bullshit, really. Esoteric crap that people come up with when the night's mostly over and they're too high to think they sound pretentious. It's all because of the noise. Because when the amps are pumped up to max, when the singers are screaming into their mics, it's too loud to worry about thinking. The couple in the corner making out, two friends having a row...it doesn't matter. You mute it and just fucking dance.
Which she does, as much as possible. Moving. Aggressively ignoring all of the other shit. Beat after beat, partner after partner, staying only long enough to make them want her and then vanishing into the crowd again. Later, you'll find her at the bar, ordering a round of shots --vodka, from the look of it-- and then immediately downing one of them.
ii. outside a tube station
"Listen, Ms. Stonem," Effy, she silently corrects, watching them. "You're a lovely young lady, but I'm just not sure you...mesh...with our vision." She wasn't really listening for the rest. There were some half-hearted platitudes --"we really do wish you all the best," "we're really very sorry," "you've been so valuable," things like that-- and she probably muttered a quick "thanks" before going to pack her things, but it didn't matter. Not really. Temping in a finance office was never really her dream job, of course, but it just sort of...seemed like something you were meant to do. "Get out into the real world" and everything. Well, so much for that. She doesn't realize until she's off the train that one of the briefs she'd been putting together is still in her bag.
As soon as she's off the train, she pulls out a cigarette, flicks open her lighter -- it doesn't work. Nice.
She can be found outside of the station, unlit cigarette still in her mouth, tearing pages out of the brief, folding them into abstract shapes and then tossing them into a pile on the ground.
iii. late night wandering
It's always the same dream that wakes her, so late into the night that it borders on early. A door, appearing in an empty wall of her flat, opening into blackness, calling her forward. Beckoning. Sometimes, she thinks she can see herself, staring back at her from the other side of it, a faint silhouette in the darkness.
"You don't know me," she hears, her own voice coming from that other self's mouth, "and you never will."
She takes a step toward it, and then another, and then--
Awake, gasping, she shoots up and stares at the wall. No door. She reaches for a lighter, remembers the stern words of the landlady --no smoking at all times, god, why had she picked this place, again?-- and slips outside. It's raining -- something she doesn't seem to notice until she realizes she's forgot her keys. In her flat. With a door that automatically locks behind her.
"...Fuck."
And that's the story of how Effy is now wandering around alone, soaked and smoking, aimlessly waiting until someone happens to open the door -- or the management office opens. One or the other.
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Nights with live music are better for dancing. People come up with any number of reasons why -- the feel of the bass beating in your heart, the energy from the band mixing with the energy of the crowd. It's all bullshit, really. Esoteric crap that people come up with when the night's mostly over and they're too high to think they sound pretentious. It's all because of the noise. Because when the amps are pumped up to max, when the singers are screaming into their mics, it's too loud to worry about thinking. The couple in the corner making out, two friends having a row...it doesn't matter. You mute it and just fucking dance.
Which she does, as much as possible. Moving. Aggressively ignoring all of the other shit. Beat after beat, partner after partner, staying only long enough to make them want her and then vanishing into the crowd again. Later, you'll find her at the bar, ordering a round of shots --vodka, from the look of it-- and then immediately downing one of them.
ii. outside a tube station
"Listen, Ms. Stonem," Effy, she silently corrects, watching them. "You're a lovely young lady, but I'm just not sure you...mesh...with our vision." She wasn't really listening for the rest. There were some half-hearted platitudes --"we really do wish you all the best," "we're really very sorry," "you've been so valuable," things like that-- and she probably muttered a quick "thanks" before going to pack her things, but it didn't matter. Not really. Temping in a finance office was never really her dream job, of course, but it just sort of...seemed like something you were meant to do. "Get out into the real world" and everything. Well, so much for that. She doesn't realize until she's off the train that one of the briefs she'd been putting together is still in her bag.
As soon as she's off the train, she pulls out a cigarette, flicks open her lighter -- it doesn't work. Nice.
She can be found outside of the station, unlit cigarette still in her mouth, tearing pages out of the brief, folding them into abstract shapes and then tossing them into a pile on the ground.
iii. late night wandering
It's always the same dream that wakes her, so late into the night that it borders on early. A door, appearing in an empty wall of her flat, opening into blackness, calling her forward. Beckoning. Sometimes, she thinks she can see herself, staring back at her from the other side of it, a faint silhouette in the darkness.
"You don't know me," she hears, her own voice coming from that other self's mouth, "and you never will."
She takes a step toward it, and then another, and then--
Awake, gasping, she shoots up and stares at the wall. No door. She reaches for a lighter, remembers the stern words of the landlady --no smoking at all times, god, why had she picked this place, again?-- and slips outside. It's raining -- something she doesn't seem to notice until she realizes she's forgot her keys. In her flat. With a door that automatically locks behind her.
"...Fuck."
And that's the story of how Effy is now wandering around alone, soaked and smoking, aimlessly waiting until someone happens to open the door -- or the management office opens. One or the other.
iv. wildcard
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So much for staying out of it and living a normal life, huh?
He's just lit his own cigarette when he sees a pretty girl fumbling with hers.
"Here." He hands her his lighter, a little too self-conscious to close the distance between them. She could be one of those personal space types. "This one works."
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She's heard her fair share of it, too. It'll fuck you up. Those things will kill you. All of it. But what the hell. Something is certain to kill you anyway, one day, and she might just have a long, long time to figure out what it'll be. Might as well start stacking the odds now.
The first thing she notices when she looks at Simon is-- something she can't quite put a finger on. Something sort of weird about him. It makes her hesitate for a moment, eyeing the lighter offered, but only very briefly before she resigns herself to accept the help. "Thanks." Flick. A deep inhale of smoke as she tosses her own into the nearest bin, then hands his back. "The cheap ones are rubbish."
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He takes out his lighter again and examines it. It's metal and rather embarrassingly emblazoned with a Union Jack, very much the kind of thing you buy that one uncle you forgot to get a souvenir for at the airport duty free. "I think this one might actually belong to my flatmate, but I'm keeping it unless he asks for it back. Found it in the kitchen a couple weeks back." It seems like something Matt would like. Matt's still in the Anglophile phase of his life as an expat--a few more weeks in London and Simon figures that'll be beaten out of him.
After a beat, he adds, awkwardly, "I'm Simon, by the way."
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Her eyes are on the lighter as he flips it between his fingers. It's fairly nice, imagery aside, but a faintly amused smile flicks across her face at his idle explanation. "Finders keepers, yeah?" she suggests, tone a little dry, smoke in her words. It doesn't really matter whose it is, in the end, but the fact that it looks so...souvenir-esque is a little funny. Either he or his flatmate -- one of them must be either a tourist, or maybe a bit of a punk.
"Effy." She's quiet for a moment, breathing another lungful of smoke into the sky, and then nods at him. "You coming or going?"
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Adulting is hard on no sleep.
"Going. First night off in over a week. You?"
Something about Effy makes Simon deeply uncomfortable; he doesn't quite know what. She's stunningly pretty, which doesn't help his self-consciousness any, but it isn't that. There's something about her that feels simultaneously extremely familiar and intensely foreign. Something about the way she smells.
...Oh.
Fuck.
Here he is trying to chat up a pretty girl, and she's fae. Because of course she is.
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"A week?" She looks a little surprised, eyebrows lifting. "Very industrious of you."
Between drags on cigarettes and probably predictably awkward first interaction moments, something Simon might notice is that despite the airy, aloof demeanor, and despite the fact that she is indeed fae, she's also making an aggressive attempt to act normal. Or rather, to act human. Jobs, coffees, taking the train -- normal things that normal people do. She knows what she is, and she knows that there's something strange about him, too. But that doesn't mean she has to give a fuck about it.
"Also going," she adds, shrugging a bit. "Taking a permanent vacation from work."
In other words, sacked. Another very normal thing.
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Oh, he knows all about trying to be normal. Even when he's up to his eyeballs in supernatural shit--his previous career at Starbucks is now a long-distant memory, leaving him fully reliant on Sylvia Redbright and her Night Council for income--he still desperately clings to the illusion that he's just a normal student who has to work nights to afford a flat near UCL.
He whistles faintly when she admits she's either just been fired from her job or left it willingly. The way she looks when she talks about it, he's willing to bet the former.
"I'm a bit jealous."
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He's soaked, but Eames doesn't seem in any hurry to get somewhere. Granted, the feeling is unpleasant but it's something you get used to after centuries in England. He's about to bypass Effy entirely, but a wandering fae in the rain is probably worth paying attention to. So Eames slows to a stop by her instead, looking up at the rain and then at her with a raised eyebrow.
"You alright?"
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It's hard to describe the way she realizes she can recognize what he is immediately, but that recognition shows on her face. Someone like her. A fae -- she's never met another one before...not that she can remember, at least. For a moment, she only stares at him, brows creased in a curious, sort of wary expression.
"... Not dead yet." There's the thing. She might not be able to lie, but as she's learning, that doesn't mean she has to tell the truth. "That's got to count for something."
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"It's significantly better than the alternative." Eames gives her a knowing smile. A miserable life, that of a ghost. Not that either of them will ever know it firsthand. He steps in a little closer, the recognition flashing across her face tells him all he needs to know, and he drops his voice a little as he speaks on. "New to this, aren't you?"
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"You sound sure of that." Said with a dismissive tone, but Effy is a teenager. Everything she says sounds dismissive. It's not that she actively has a death wish, these days -- she's just never sure she had much of a life wish. She watches him quietly for a moment, absorbing those words. His tone says a lot, but even if it didn't...if she can tell what he is, there's no way he hasn't noticed. She squeezes the cigarette between thumb and forefinger, breathing smoke into the rain.
"A bit. Who knew London would be exactly the same as in TV dramas."
Her tone is dry and avoidant, because while there is a part of her that screams out yes, god, please help me, I've fucked up so much already, an even bigger part of her isn't ready to trust anyone, let alone a stranger.
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Eames laughs, distaste for teenagers aside, and shrugs a shoulder. "I wouldn't say that." So she's dodging the question. It's not a surprise, changelings tend to either be annoyingly honest or already great at dancing around the issue. Either way, they rarely trust easy once they know what they are. "I've never seen many dramas with extended scenes about locking yourself out in the rain."
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Dodging questions is what she does on a good day. Today, in this situation, with this particular stranger? She's practically barrel rolling around them. "Really. Good." Another puff on the cigarette; her free hand moves to shove sopping wet hair out of her face. "Thought I might've turned into a complete cliche."
Instead of just a partial one. You know. She pauses, looking out at the rain, and then eyes him again, cautiously. "You seem to know a lot about what I'm doing out here. What about you?" It's not exactly perfect weather for a stroll around town, after all.
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Eames tilts his head with a small smirk tugging on his lips, tone almost conspiratorial. As though he's imparting some secret instead of total bullshit. "Would you believe I'm just a good Samaritan, out looking for people to help?"
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His smile broadens. "I'm Eames," he says, offering his name in a delayed greeting.
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The cigarette is getting soggy. One last drag and she puts it out. "Effy."
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But nothing venture, nothing gained, eh?
"How much do you know about what you are, Effy?"
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If looks could kill, the change in her expression would probably at least hurt like hell. At once she looks stony and scared, wary and withdrawn. None of your fucking business, her first thought, venomous and defensive. She holds onto it, though, because it's not true, is it? It sort of is his business.
That doesn't make it any better.
"I know I'm like you," she answers, going from cool to cold as she speaks. Her arms cross, body language turning defensive. "Not human. And I know it's completely fucked up."
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"You've not known for long then, I take it." It's not really a question. It's obvious how new to this she is.
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Is there anything about it that isn't fucked up?
"Not long," she answers, after a few moments of hesitation. Her tone is still guarded, still standoffish, but a little less reluctant. "A few months, maybe. I always wondered..." She pauses, contemplatively fishing another cigarette out of her damp pocket. "... Well. Figured it out eventually, at least."
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Guess that makes him the welcoming party then. Eames gestures to her wet everything with a wry smile, "welcome to London."
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London just seemed like the right place to go. Now she's beginning to understand why.
Her smile is nothing but dry sarcasm, flat and sardonic. "Yeah. Thanks. I wasn't expecting a proper welcoming committee."
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Though less so now he's a Lord. Maybe there is an up side to this whole 'promotion' thing after all.
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The sound of her heels comes to a stop, though, right in front of the pile of papers, half-crunched or folded into shapes that barely makes sense... she bends down, picks up one of them.
"A star? It's good." It is, too -- the shapes, abstract though they might be, are also artistic. Gaby finds she likes them better than some of the origami shapes she saw in Kyoto... they're more real.
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Effy, by contrast, still has a cigarette hanging from her lips, torn paper edges scattered across the floor beneath her boots. She's busy tearing one sheet now, into thin lines that curl as she rips them from the rest of the paper. "Keep it, if you want." The lines of that star are way less pristine than the lines of Gaby's dress. "Maybe someday it'll be worth something."
Origami is not her strong suit, clearly -- the only way she could get the paper into that shape was to tear it up. But dry sarcasm clearly is one of her talents.
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But she hadn't been that Gaby for a long while, now.
"I think I will, thank you," she says, voice somehow aloof and light at once, like making conversation over a pile of trash with a wayward teenager (for the girl certainly looks like one) is an everyday thing for her.
"What have they done, to offend you?" She indicates the papers on the ground with her now free hand, the paper star dropped on top of her half-open bag.
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"Yeah. Sure." Her tone is brusque, as though brushing off the gratitude. She's already moved onto the next project. It begins in an orderly way, folds precise and intentional. Meaningful. Partway through, though, it all falls apart -- whatever it was supposed to be, she clearly only has the start of it, and once she falters on the rest, it totally loses its shape. She folds, then unfolds, then folds again, but the damage is done.
Maybe she should've learned. She should've done loads of things.
"Nothing," she says with a shrug, sighing beneath the unlit cigarette as she pulls off another sheet. "But they don't mean anything anymore. Not like this. No one gives a fuck about them, like this."
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Gaby glances down at the papers again, a casual look, and catches numbers, notes. Assembled for a case, an office file, perhaps.
A file that the office no longer needs, it seems.
"You took them with you," she counters, voice just as impassive as before, the implication that means you still care some way hidden in the words.
The emotionless quality disappears, though, when she continues: "If you don't look right, sound right, have the right background... they don't need much reason. Offices, corporations. Young women can starve for all they care."
Assumption -- but then, Gaby isn't a spy for nothing... and more than that, she recognizes herself in the girl in front of her, seventeen and out of work, out of money, all alone.
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"Something to remember them by," she says, dry and maybe a bit forcefully nonchalant.
Gaby's words make her slow and then stop her paper-folding, watching the woman with wary eyes. You don't know me, her first gut response, she bites back. This woman is more than just that weird feeling she's getting -- she's sharp and observant. The last thing Effy needs, or wants, to do is give herself away completely.
Being analyzed like that -- read like an open book. It's disturbing.
"I know, it's devastating," she says in the end, voice dripping with sarcasm. "How shall I ever fulfill my dreams of being a desk girl now?"
Maybe she did care, a little. It's not nearly as much as she cares about being scrutinized like this.
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(Sometimes, she thinks she's not truly changed from that -- only become better at lying.)
Gaby hums, nonchalant and clearly unaffected by the sarcasm... or choosing to ignore it. It isn't like she doesn't rely on sarcasm as well, if the situation calls for it; she knows how to deal with someone who does the same.
"Isn't it less about the job, and more about... feeling you're good enough for it? And the money," she adds, matter-of-fact. "I always thought the job mattered little, as long as it gave me enough money to get by."
It's the truth, too -- or at least it was, back when she was still getting her education to be a mechanic, when she needed to take every job she could to keep the house, to pay the bills. And offering some information about herself, instead of only talking about the girl... maybe it will make her less wary.
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It-- it's that feeling of belonging. Of being able to hold onto something human -- anything. 'We're just not sure you...mesh." Of course they fucking weren't. Of course she fucking doesn't. She didn't "mesh" in Bristol. She had hoped things would come together a little more here, in a city so big that she could be anyone. Anyone she wants. But that's not how it works, is it? Instead of being anyone, she's here, just her, talking to a woman who makes her unsettled in a way she can't explain, but that certainly can't be normal.
Maybe she wouldn't know any of that if it was staring her in the face.
"...It was crap, anyway," she adds, after a moment, a distinct feeling in mind that Gaby is not going to let her just shut the conversation down. "Busy work. Bet you could find half a dozen places like that just on this street."
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Maybe she doesn't have too many people to talk to, like this. Or maybe it's easier, to talk to a stranger on the street than those you know... without the need to pretend.
Gaby wonders when pretending became easier than trying to truly be someone, when even being herself started feeling like a pretense.
"I'm sure you could... but if it was, as you say, crap," her voice places the slightest of emphasis on the word, like making it subtly obvious there is another word she would use, the sibilant sounds of her native language at the tip of her tongue, "wouldn't it be the same in any one of those?"
Of course it would. But that isn't the point, is it?
"What is it you came here to do? To London. Find work? A holiday? Me, I'm the former," she adds, with the slightest of smiles.
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But this woman is asking questions, and she's not just rattling along -- she's listening. No, it's not unheard of. But it's got her interested. ("Why me?" she can't help but wonder, all the same.)
"Would be, yeah," she agrees, a faintly amused smile tugging at her face at Gaby's enunciation of the word crap. "Maybe I should aim higher. 'Shoot for the moon. Aim for greatness.'" The tone is faintly sardonic. Motivation in life...it's never been her strong suit, not really. Usually, she's still working on right now, not thinking about the future.
She watches Gaby for a moment, curiously. "For work?" She very unsubtly does not answer just yet. "What d'you do?"
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"There's nothing wrong with aiming for mediocrity, as long as it's what you want." She means it, too -- to aim for greatness, it requires a certain type of person. It means there's so much further down to fall.
She hums in response, noting the girl's lack of response -- but then, she was pushing it, wasn't she?
"This and that. But right now, they were lacking a physics teacher in the Institute... so they called me." She pushes her sunglasses at the top of her head, revealing a pair of bright eyes, keen and ever-changing in colour-- it's hard to pin down whether they're brown, green or grey.
"I'm not really teacher material," she admits with a light tone; her own failure in this doesn't seem to upset her much, and certainly never factored in to her decision to accept the job. (Of course it wouldn't have-- her job here is far more than simply teaching.)
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It's not exactly a great way to live your life, probably, but what the hell. Maybe that's her "fae nature" or something.
For now, she gives the rest of the economics brief a bit of a rest, tucking it under one arm as she rifles through her bag for --aha-- another lighter. She sparks it once, twice, and-- it lights on the third try.
"A teacher." She sounds a bit surprised, at that, though she shouldn't really be. Roundview had loads of teachers way more strange than her. "So, physics? Bet that's exciting." Her tone is noncommittal, as if she can't decide whether she's serious or sarcastic.
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Now, with her job, with UNCLE? Her goal... is to complete her missions. To lie, to succeed, to never be bored again.
She's not sure it's much of a goal, in the end.
"It can be," she answers. The girl is surprised-- something that isn't a surprise. She knows she isn't what people would expect of a teacher, and trying to be... simply wouldn't happen. She must make the cover work in some other way. She breathes out and shrugs. "Not so much on high school level."
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But, hey. Looks can be deceiving.
"One hell of a teacher, aren't you," she observes, exhaling smoke with a wry smile.
Maybe she would've fit in well, at Roundview. Maybe. But then -- did anyone? Did any of them? Disaffected youths and even more disaffected teachers. Legendary rule-breakers and career slackers. No one really wanted to be there, did they. Not a one.
"Must be tough." If they were anything like the people she knew, at least.
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"I like to think I'm... different enough," she answers, with a small shrug. The sentiment holds almost too much truth-- she's quite likely to be the most different teacher the Institute has ever had.
Gaby regards the girl for a while, tilting her head while her eyes remain unblinking, almost eerily so. "Maybe you should consider some more studying, too, if being a desk girl isn't living up to... anything. Redbright is- not bad, as far as its education goes." Not perhaps the best sales pitch, but then she's never been one to mince words.
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Another smile. He's not judging. It's fun to watch some of the tools of the club get what they deserve.
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"If you want something," she begins, pausing to slide one of the shot glasses his way, "...you should take it."
She downs the last shot, leaving the glass on the bar, and gives him a look over her shoulder as she goes back to the dance floor.
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"Isn't that stealing?" He asks, humor in his tone, as he edges his way in front of the guy already trying to cozy up to her. "Taking what you want."
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"Oh, no. Stealing. How scary." Her eyes are wide in mock surprise, but there's a teasing half-smile on her face, too.
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"Oh, right, I forgot," he replies above the pounding of the music. "Having morals is so last century."
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"Morals," she repeats, amusement in her tone as she moves to the music -- much less casually than Kyle does. He sounds like a regular boy scout. "Haven't you ever wanted something so bad you've just got to take it?"
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"Not for a long time."
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"What do you do when you want something, then? Wait for it to ask you to dance?"
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"Or I ask myself if I really want it that bad, because the answer's usually no." A few years in South Africa helped with that.