Being a wolf might have given him anger and vaguely murderous tendencies, but at heart Connor's not really meant to be a murderer himself. The fact that he's been this wrapped up in multiple instances of death at this point is still shocking to him, and hearing Party point out about the one that had actually been, without question, his doing makes him blanch.

"Of course it's a bad thing," but the anger has kind of seeped out of his tone by now, more or less, replaced by a numbness and a hint of fear. Connor is afraid of Party, there's no question, but he's more afraid of himself. Anger has always been a great cover, a good thing to turn to, like a security blanket thrown over your head to block out the world. But it's not the full picture and Party hits him where it hurts. "I didn't ask to be like this."